And then.

I haven't posted in a while. I don't know if you miss my posts. Anyway.
Lots have happened, mostly good stuff, I just haven't been in the writing mood.

The moments after

Most of the time what I seek is just clarity. A point where everything is peeled off, the layers and layers of unimportant and shallow shit, and things are put in perspective. And what one is left with is just what life is.
Seeking clarity doesn't work. It comes to you. And now I know when - after someone has died.

Frankly.

When a new year starts I'm either very hopeful or on the edge of devastation. I'm closer to the latter this year, but I won't fall.
I just find that, once again, I ask myself questions and realizing there are new answers to them. And I fail to recall when things changed. The real problem though, is if things will stay this way or if I'll change back into old mode. I'm quite sick of re-routing everything.